Lately I have been binging on self-help books, surfing the internet for articles on family issues -- I just want an answer, to know what went wrong and how to fix it. But everything seems hollow. I feel horribly stuck and I desperately want to move forward and I don't know how. Lots and lots of details inside. [more inside]
I'm in a rut. Professionally and personally, I have long lists of projects that I need or want to get done and have made little to no progress on. I've made lists. I've made plans. I've made schedules. I've thought about why it is that I'm not doing what I know I should do. When I think about all the things I want to do and am not doing I feel ill. [more inside]
I've been really stressed lately, but a few things can make me belly laugh until I forget what I was worried about. Sadly, there are only so many Margaret Cho videos and I think I've already exhausted "Whose Line is it Anyway?" I also find Dan Savage's podcast funny and utterly distracting. What else could I listen to or watch that will make me howl with laughter?
After 3 weeks on 75 mg of zoloft (previously was on 50 mg) the side effects are helping with my intense anxiety. In fact, I'm pretty apathetic. I'm also having difficulty sleeping and then difficulty waking up, to the point that I slept well into the afternoon today (very unusual for me). I find myself clenching my jaw and rather jittery. And I feel strangely separated from reality, as if I'm in a fog. As hard as it is to fall asleep I feel like I'm fighting sleep all day. Has anyone experienced these symptoms but stayed on the medication and found that they were able to stabilize?