Had juggled some interpersonal issues that made me question / lose grip on reality; President Trump has made it bad enough for me to finally seek therapy again. Agent Orange contaminated snowflakes follow (content warning: self-injury) [more inside]
Hello All, I seem be having some low-self esteem issues lately, especially with expressing a fierce opinion, sharing my beliefs, and sharing/explaining my hobbies to others. I have such a difficult time warming up to strangers, that I will excessively worry that I'm not interesting, exciting, and vibrant enough -- I'll shut down and become aloof. I have become withdrawn and reserved -- how can I open up and gain some confidence? [more inside]
So this happened. I would totally subscribe to the magazine on the right for my daughter. Am trying to find its (English language) equivalent. Does one exist?
When you talk to yourself, inside or outside of your head, what do you call yourself? Do you use your given name, your family name, a nickname, what?
So I have a small child who is in the process of converting from a passive milk converter into some of actual human. Do you know of any sources I could look at which would enlighten me on how their brain develops and most importantly any fun experimenty things I could do to see how their perception is changing and to better understand how they are seeing the world. [more inside]
I've admitted my father may be kind of a monster. Is he really, or is it me? [more inside]
As a kid I self harmed, something that left me with a fair number of scars, most of them narrow and quite long (I used a small jack knife for most of my cutting). Now I want to cover them up with tattoos. What types of tattoos would work best at covering up such scars? [more inside]
I have a very clear vision of the life I want, but I can't stop sabotaging myself. It's like being unable to stop your legs from running off of a cliff. Please help before I run my life into the ground. [more inside]
How to sit with discomfort (and you know... get some sleep) after making decisions that put my financial needs first? [more inside]
I'm at a conference and feeling like a failure. I know about power poses, I've started blasting upbeat music in my headphones when I'm going from place to place, and I've started doing little mindfulness/body checks if I'm feeling really alarmed. What else can I be doing to combat my imposter syndrome/crises of confidence, right now?
I'm a 31 year old lady with the goal of developing an inner, natural sense of self-esteem. I've noticed some habits in myself that seem related to low self-esteem. I'm not entirely sure how these habits developed, but I want to change them. [more inside]
Is this a dishonest way to raise money? [more inside]
I have a problem with googling myself several times a day, whenever I take a break from working or doing other things. Help me stop. [more inside]
I manage my writer friend's site where he puts up (not otherwise published) longform articles for free. Film criticism, fiction and articles about literature and philosophy, close to 500 entries. Due to his ethics he is against marketing or monetising and only now after some years we are investigating donations (definitely not monetising). Is this feasible, and how do I not get this wrong? [more inside]
I'm a man and in my mid 20's. I'm currently working on attaining my masters in social work, I've been reading up on research and While I'm no psychiatrist I do feel that I have suffered episodes of abandonment. My Stepfather ( who has raised me since I was two) suffered during his upbringing. He never met his father and his mom neglected a lot of her motherly duties. [more inside]
After tons (and maybe too much self-reflection) I've come to realize all my problems boil down to the fact that I hate myself. Help? [more inside]
At what point does avoiding the things that make you unhappy become unhealthy? [more inside]
I've recently ended a very intense emotional relationship with someone and now I've lost my sense of identity. So much of who I was was tied up in her, I don't seem to know how to be me now she's gone. Has anything helped you, in a similar position? [more inside]
I spend soul shredding hours focused on things I lack, like good looks and social grace. I'm aware that my only real choice is to focus on the life I have and to live it with the traits I possess. I know that, but on some level I don't accept it. So how does one dispense with unnecessary suffering, accept what is, and carve out a decent life? I'm running out of time. Background below... [more inside]
I'm looking for a therapist to help with my excessively self-destructive, masochistic desires and tendencies. Don't misunderstand; I don't need a "kink-aware" therapist, because these feelings do not fall within the realm of safe, sane, and consensual; they're compulsive, intrusive, and interfering with my life. They are also not exclusivly sexual or fetishistic in nature. I'm putting myself in real danger, and I need someone to help me stop wanting to.
My husband drinks 6+ beers a night and smokes 2 packs a day. I used to drink quite a bit, but when I took note of how much it drains out bank account, I cut down to 1 or none a night. In the last month he has spent over $500 on drinks and cigarettes. That is money we could be saving. How can I implore him to stop without being a nag? [more inside]
In 6-8 months, I'll be finishing school and and looking to start practicing as a professional independently in my field. I don't want to go into detail, but I will be a health professional who will be responsible for preserving lives in potentially dire situations. I'm smart and capable, but I don't always sound like I am. I need to learn to speak more elegantly, eloquently, and beautifully so I will inspire confidence in clients and potential clients. I'm a female from a sort of upper middle class background from southern CA with a host of less charming and confidence inspiring collloquialisms (like saying 'like' like a whole lot!). Right now I'm a student living on student money so I can't afford private coaches or expensive lessons. The ideal for me would be to sound like Julie Andrews in The Princess Diaries (of course I don't want to fake her accent though, just speak in the same manner). I'm at a loss on where to start.
I've always known I was a little different. I have trouble remembering things from my relatively normal childhood, so it took until high school to connect the few dots I had, but after I did that, I relished in the attraction I felt for certain other men. It was exciting and made me feel as though I was part of a community with a common story. I grew up with conservative parents who I haven't been able to tell but who I suspect have an inkling, given the things they found left open on my teenage computer and my shy, sensitive nature. I was fine with not making it a part of my identity and limited its sphere of influence to my taste in porn and online friendships. I never felt the need for a relationship- with women or men- but I enjoyed the way validation from "manly" men made me feel both emotionally and physically. [more inside]
Today's world demands high security devices, like an aggressively self-destructing USB drive. I would like advice on the possibility of creating such a thing if one wouldn't mind offering wisdom. [more inside]
I need help. I am seeking therapy for this issue, but it will take about six weeks before I can get in. My partner (m 36) and I (f 34) are not having sex. It has been about four months. He is dealing with depression and anxiety issues and is on medication for this. This has been pretty hard for me since we greatly enjoyed such an active sex life prior to this. He attributes our sexual issues to his diagnosis and medication. In my head I believe what he tells me, but this is triggering past issues for me that are getting in the way of me believing what he says. The fact that he masturbates at least once a day is hard for me to handle. [more inside]
I've felt a change in my personality and how I handle things lately, and it's making me uneasy. [more inside]
What tools/gadgets for self defense would you recommend for a small to medium sized woman? [more inside]
Specifically books about the blossoming of The Self [more inside]
What I’m trying to figure out now is how to trust people again, trust myself again, and find myself/my voice again. [more inside]
I am struggling and I don't know how to handle this and not make myself completely miserable along the way [more inside]
As I'm edging closer to middle age, I am struck by how little I know myself. Occasionally I am asked to talk or write about myself (mainly for work purposes) and I have no idea what to say. I am fairly aware of my range of skills, but I have very little insight as to my personality traits. I have done the Myer-Briggs test, read several books and completed various career assessments, but I still struggle to define who I am. More details inside - but in short: how do others define and describe themselves? How do you become aware of yourself? Think more pragmatic/philosophical descriptions of your personality traits and less about CV bloats. [more inside]
I'm in my second semester of a professional master's program at a top-10 program. I can keep up with the classwork, but I get really caught up in comparing myself to other people. It not only makes me feel horrible, it significantly takes away from me doing my work. I'm prone to depression and lots of social anxiety anyway (I do have a therapist, we haven't talked about the self-comparison as much), but am well-liked in my program. I'd say I'm about on par with other folks in my program in terms of accomplishments (some have much more, some do less), so my intense feelings of inadequacy are mostly unwarranted. However, when I hear people talking about doing things I'm not (eg working with professors more than me, getting fellowships), I feel absolutely terrible. What should I be doing or trying to do to knock it off? Mental hacks, philosophical approaches, practical tips all welcome, though I should say I understand intellectually that there will always be someone doing more than me and that's life.
I'm going through some things that have both brought me a lot of sadness and presented an opportunity to change my life for the better. I'm wondering if there are any books the MeFi hive can recommend, novels, memoirs or otherwise. They should be about people who have suffered loss, perhaps enduring shame, but emerging better for it. [more inside]
I'm 25. I studied design in school and realized I don't want to practice it and I don't fit in to typical office environments. I started freelancing and I'm thrilled by the amount of freedom it offers but I'm also worried about how sustainable this lifestyle is. [more inside]
I feel invisible. Either that, or just forgotten/not cared for. Any solutions or experiences coping with being ignored? [more inside]
I am fascinated and more then a little curious about self-promotion. Not the kind that you use to get hired or promote a new project or in a professional way, more of the spectacular kind of like the Xmas letter variety where everyone and all is so super great, but not just limited to that. [more inside]
Hi Mefi Community, I would like to apply for an MFT grad program but feel a huge block when it comes to the personal statement, as well as the letter of reference(s). One of my recommenders has asked that I draft the letter of reference and he will approve it after review, but I've never actually even seen one of these before, so do not know where to begin! [more inside]
I'm a girl that is 1,76 m tall, and I'm having serious problems with my height. I'm getting really depressed with it over time and I've come to the point where I am completely desperate. I really need some help. [more inside]
I feel like I have very different (by society's standards) sides to me... and I don't know how to truly be myself in either one. [more inside]
I need to learn how to live for myself first, and not place so much of my self-worth on how people I'm dating view me. Please help. [more inside]
Or, more suitably... your best advice to someone trying to learn more about themselves (become stronger, learn what I want/need/wont settle for) to prepare for dating in the distant future. [more inside]
I went through a pretty wretched breakup of a long-term relationship earlier this year and am still dealing with the ill effects. I'm not interested in dating anyone, or rather don't think I should date anyone, for a while. But I'm getting really into the idea of dating myself. Please help me come up with ideas to do that! [more inside]
I've decided to quit my corporate job and try my hand at launching a personal consulting business. What are some excellent resources that cover all manner of logistical necessities in this domain? [more inside]
I'm interested in dating and otherwise be-friend a guy. We have common interests and he seems to be "nice" and has a high level of intelligence. That said - Every conversation revolves around him. I love to ask people questions and let them "talk freely about their life or whatever"... but at some point you want to have a two-sided conversation. How can I politely make this point without coming across in the wrong way? This is not someone I have known longer then a couple dates.
I know self help books have a bad reputation, but some transcend the genre. Any subject, from parenting to finance to spirituality is ok. [more inside]
Negotiating self pay medical bill. I want to have an idea of how much the surgical practice/surgeon would have been paid if the patient had had insurance. How much will they get if they hire a collection agency? Do they get a percentage or just sell the debit for a fixed price? The patient is being billed 1850.00 self pay for the procedure. The procedure was at a major Boston hospital and the patient is being billed self pay due to a temporary lapse in subsidized insurance. The hospital has already written off the bill. The billing date was sometime around the end of March 2013. The patient has been told by the billing organization that represents the surgeon that they have to deal directly with the surgeon or their practice.
I need to be more direct with my communication, and I just find it very difficult to do it. What are some ways I can get over the fears in my head and be more direct, as in, ask for what I need directly and stop being such a pushover? [more inside]
About a week ago I went through this horrible self-esteem crisis. It occurred to me that almost everyone I know has a degree from a university, but that I do not. In an organization I am a member of, everyone there is a lawyer, professor, teacher, engineer, etc., and the friends I have all have Bachelor's or Master's degrees. Here I am with no degree and having dropped out of three universities – it makes me feel like such a failure. In the next two weeks I'll be starting truck driving school – I feel like it is something I can do and be successful at? – but I still have accomplished nothing that compares to a degree! [more inside]
Hello! I am an independent contractor (1099 Misc form) for the first time in my life and need some tax advice as the budget is a bit tight! Therapy, acupuncture, bicycle, insurance, computer, etc. How do deductions work? [more inside]
How do I fight my inner self-saboteur? [more inside]