"You weren't meant to have a boss." - Paul Graham
April 30, 2008 2:15 PM Subscribe
I'm terrible at having a job, and it's making my life unlivable. Help.
posted by anonymous to work & money (28 answers total) 70 users marked this as a favorite
I've been a flop at basically every job I've ever had. My wife and my friends will all tell you differently; they'll say I'm personable, knowledgeable, outgoing, successful and friendly. But I know the sad truth. I just don't think I'm meant to work for other people. I'm shit with deadlines, critical and ignorant of company policies, rules and management, convinced that I'm right all the time, and indignant at being compelled to help other people make lots of money and have nice vacations while I struggle to get by and commute 1.5 hours every morning.
I'm at this point with yet another job. I'm a year and a half in and I've been slack enough in all the right ways that I'm a pariah. They haven't fired me yet, but it's probably just because I'm not worth the effort. The whole situation is eating away at what's left of my self worth.
The funny thing is, on my own, I'm great. I get shit done, I'm kind to clients and I'm on time. I have great ideas and I follow through with them. There's no way I can do freelance right now though; the wife and I just signed a mortgage, my town is small and she's not going for the "feast or famine" of freelance.
So, how do I get better at having a normal job? How do I swallow my pride and stop seeing all my heroes smirk at me from behind their guitars while I work some shit job making banner ads?
This is depressing, and it's making me feel like a terminal failure. I feel unable to consistently provide for my wife, and I feel like a burden on my fellow workers (and they're not above reminding me from time to time, which makes me feel like I've just been picked last in gym class.) Help? Ideas?