Comments on: Am I having orgasms?

Question: Am I having orgasms?

zeusianfog — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 21:56:28 -0800

Very personal sex/anatomy question ahoy. I'm a gay male with an active sex life, but I have never ejaculated during sex. Up until recently, I've been operating under the assumption that I've never experienced an orgasm, but my boyfriend pointed out that I describe my experience as sharp spike in sexual pleasure, after which continued stimulation feels painful and unpleasant. After this spike occurs, I lose my erection, I feel exhausted/spent and my genitals are tender for a few hours afterwards. It certainly feels like I imagine an orgasm would feel, but there is no ejaculation. I've read that they needn't necessarily go hand in hand, but there are complicating factors. I have wet dreams, and so obviously I am capable of ejaculating. Is there something wrong with my ability to ejaculate, or am I just not orgasming, as we've assumed up until now? Will this cause long-term problems? Should I seek medical attention?

By: Blazecock Pileon

Blazecock Pileon — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:02:50 -0800

Should I seek medical attention?

Stop masturbating, first. Go without masturbation for a week. The next time you jump your bf, you'll surprise him and yourself.

By: zeusianfog

zeusianfog — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:08:31 -0800

Oh, there's another mitigating factor. I never masturbate.

By: piratebowling

piratebowling — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:16:16 -0800

If I recall correctly from my Human Sexuality classes, yes it is indeed possible for men to orgasm without ejaculation. From your description, thats what it sounds like is happening. I'm sorry I can't answer your other questions, but I think it is something that would be worthwhile to discuss with a doctor.

By: Blazecock Pileon

Blazecock Pileon — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:21:52 -0800

There's retrograde ejaculation except for infertility, which isn't something most gay men worry about, it sounds relatively harmless, but if you're not masturbating and you don't ejaculate when you orgasm, you might consider seeing a GP or urologist.

By: swbarrett

swbarrett — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:25:10 -0800

seriously, if there is a chance that your penis is malfunctioning, see a doctor, not the internet

By: zeusianfog

zeusianfog — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:28:31 -0800

Well, doctors cost money--I can afford to see one if I have a really pressing medical problem hopefully, but since this doesn't hurt and it isn't affecting my quality of life, so I just want to know a) if I have serious longterm concerns and b) if I am actually having orgasms, because then I would feel a little less frustrated by the ejaculatory impasse.

By: HotPatatta

HotPatatta — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:43:21 -0800

The first part of your question has left me all hot 'n' bothered.
Anyway...
Sounds like an orgasm to me. But you really should ask your doc. Do you feel any type of spasms or contractions in your genitals when you feel your pseudo-orgasm? Those contractions are what pump the ejaculate out during orgasm.

By: hal_c_on

hal_c_on — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:45:46 -0800

Here's a question. Is your urine different before and after sex? If you don't know, do this experiment.

Take a piss and store it in a 8oz sealed container. Make sure you take that piss a few hours before sex. Next take a piss soon after sex. Maybe even 15 minutes later. If its a smaller volume piss, thats even better. Store it in a similar clear container.

Does it seem different? I'm not talking about the color...but maybe consistency?

If you do notice a difference...that may be indicative of retrograde ejac. You're basically pissing out your semen after sex.

That seems like the best at-home test to me. Otherwise, if you have a centrifuge...

By: zeusianfog

zeusianfog — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 22:57:48 -0800

I'm given to understand that urine with a lot of bubbles is semen-rich, and I have observed this on my own. But does that necessarily mean retrograde ejaculation in my case? The reason I ask: The pent-up semen would need to escape whether or not I've had an orgasm. I may be pissing out come--in fact, I certainly am, because I'm not having wet dreams often enough not to be--but that doesn't mean that I'm actually having orgasms, which is kind of important to my question. If I have sex with my boyfriend and don't come, there's almost certainly going to be semen in my urine--it's only retrograde ejaculation if I've orgasmed as well, I thought.

By: DarlingBri

DarlingBri — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 23:29:44 -0800

zeusianfog I totally understand about doctors and money, but you're a gay man in NYC. There absolutely positively has got to be a clinic, dude.

By: rtha

rtha — Fri, 04 Apr 2008 23:55:36 -0800

Call GMHC and ask them for advice/referrals to a free or cheap gay-friendly clinic.

By: gingerbeer

gingerbeer — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 09:06:44 -0800

Or go see the nice people at Callen-Lourde Community Health Center.

By: bashos_frog

bashos_frog — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 11:09:52 -0800

Seconding Callen-Lorde, I did some work for them (years back) and they were great people.

By: zeusianfog

zeusianfog — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 15:13:33 -0800

I appreciate the clinic recommendations, guys, but I haven't really been convinced by the other answers that this is actually serious enough to see a doctor about. As Blazecock pointed out, since I'm gay infertility is hardly a concern and I just found the Wikipedia page kind of confusing--so will applying pressure to the perineum hurt or help, etc.

By: kalessin

kalessin — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 17:34:40 -0800

I am not a doctor.

You may wish to talk with a urologist - you may have some sort of constriction on your urethra while you have an erection. An M.D. would probably give you an ultrasound and try to figure out if there really were some mechanical reason you weren't ejaculating.

The question really is: Are you satisfied with your sex life? Or are you dissatisfied? There are gay male sex therapists if you are dissatisfied.

As some data points, while my current partnership bears closest approximation to heterosexual (there are complications I won't go into unless you're curious) I sometimes have non-ejaculatory orgasms. They can be quite intense and sometimes lead to the kind of soreness you mention.
I have also sometimes had orgasms that are accompanied by the pumping peristaltic mechanism that would create an ejaculation but have not because of an obvious constriction that I was aware of at the time. Neither of these seem to have done any permanent damage.
Finally, it sounds a little like your description of climax may resemble some of the encounters with "blue balls" I have had in the past, where I was incredibly aroused, and ended up not finding fulfillment, which can lead to a similar kind of soreness, but which is completely different from the kind that can follow after ejaculation, for me.

So I would only have a sense of urgency, were I you, if I experienced any unexpected mechanism/pain in my own body that was unpleasant or difficult to deal with. But maybe if you were having a physical anyway, you might mention it?

As for your perineum, there are other, pleasurable reasons to explore your perineum, or your boyfriend's, that don't really have anything to do with this particular issue, I think.

Finally, you may wish to consider exploring masturbation, if only for the possibility that by your own hand, you may discover whether or not you are actually orgasming. It is possible for most people to attain an awareness of a goal in masturbation that they later seek to achieve with a partner. This may be an efficient way for you to determine just what is going on with your parts and your physiology without going to a doctor. That's how many people know what kinds of feelings and sensations they're going for when in partnered sex - that long history of masturbation which apparently you've been avoiding.

By: fugitivefromchaingang

fugitivefromchaingang — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 22:20:48 -0800

I may be way too late to this, but if you are still checking the thread...

The fact that you don't masturbate seems relevant here. It, in fact, reminds me of me. I didn't masturbate for quite a long time (not till i was 21), despite identifying as gay and being sexually active since i was 16-17. in fact, i experienced something very similar generally - being unable to orgasm, and experiencing blue-balls feelings, and only coming when i had wet dreams.

for me, the issue was having a particular kink/fetish and not admitting it to myself for many years.

I don't mean to say you must be really kinky/have some sexual fetish that you're ashamed of. I'm just saying that for me, that's what it was. it took a little while for me to accept it/come to terms with it, and since then, no problems. so just something to think about. i mean, what do you fantasize about? if you're not masturbating, does that mean you're not fantasizing/not allowing yourself to fantasize? if not, why not?

By: zeusianfog

zeusianfog — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 07:53:04 -0800

To add more data, in response to a few comments--

I actually don't think it is blue balls, because I've had that happen before and it's completely different from what i'm describing. When I say the genitals are tender after what I believe may be an orgasm, I mean they're extra-sensitive to touch. When I have blue balls, even if I'm not touching my genitals, i'm doubled over in pain.

I only really fantasize about intimacy, and even then, only when I'm single. Sometimes I've fantasized about three-ways, which my boyfriend is amenable to but which can be difficult to arrange.

By: DarlingBri

DarlingBri — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 13:04:37 -0800

Listen, the reason I suggested seeing a doctor is because whilst retrograde ejaculation is the most obvious culprit, and is not a problem in and of itself if you're not invested in preserving your fertility, it can be caused by diabetes and other things you would want to know about.

Here's the thing. You don't detectably ejaculate. While that doesn't make you a freak of nature and it has it's own certain cachet, the bottom line is that it is not a normal pathology. That does not mean it is something you should see a medical practitioner to "fix" but you should see a doctor to determine if there is an underlying cause that does actually need to be addressed.