What do you do when there's nothing you really want to do?
February 20, 2008 7:24 AM Subscribe
I've slowly been leading a life people would envy: I've worked jobs people whistle at, I'm dating one of the smartest and most beautiful women I've ever met, I'm smart, witty, and I can pick up anything faster than you could blink.
I'm also 23, I don't give a shit
and I want to.
posted by anonymous to Grab Bag (31 answers total) 33 users marked this as a favorite
I feel like I'm entirely passionless. I love comics, but not enough to do much more except read them and talk about them. The same goes for film and music. The same goes for any of the dozens of interests I have and cultivate. I don't want to do anything but read about them. And there's not a single one I like more than another for more than a few weeks or months at a time. I know a lot. At least I know a little about a lot. Certainly more than most people I know. I feel like at this point I should've found a cousin or distant relative of something I could be passionate about to really get into and get my hands dirty.
I'm clinically depressed (technically, I'm "on the road" to bipolar disorder.) I take a fistful of pills every morning (Ritalin, Welbutrin and a mood stabilizer). I don't feel particularly depressed except when I contemplate my future. When I was a teenager, I didn't even expect to live this long. Now I'm working a 9-5 where I'm so bored I've decided to go on a warpath to make the place more efficient and I'm trying to get an English BA that will simply serve as the "BA Required" check-box on any future jobs I'll be applying to.
Nearly everyone seems to be falling either into "I'm doing what I love," "I'm doing something I don't mind doing to fund doing what I love," or "I'm miserable because I cannot do what I love" categories. I feel lost and the very few people I've met in my category are absurdly miserable. I'm not. But I want things to change. I want passion.
Where do I find it?