Help me live up to my potential and get a real job.
Ok, here's some requisite background info.
26, engaged, recently moved to Chicago. Graduated in 2003with a degree in psychology from undergrad. Went back to school right away to get a teaching certificate in secondary education and a second major in English. Completed my student teaching in Dec 2005. Have been working for a large retailer in a field totally unrelated to either of my degrees for the last two years because it's easy and a steady (but paltry) paycheck.
And here are the requisite complications in no special order.
1. I do not want to teach in the public or private school system. I found student teaching to be the most harrowing experience ever, and I don't think I have the ability to function properly in a school environment. I had a very difficult time planning my lessons.
2. My original intentions for getting a teaching certificate were to teach in the prison/corrections setting. I had an excellent service learning experience in college where I volunteered at a local prison two nights a week teaching poetry and creative writing. I love love loved it. That's the reason I have a teaching certificate. While I have no desire to work at a public school, I'd love to take my certificate to a prison and teach GED classes.
3. My transcripts from my undergrad are less than stellar. Up until my senior year of college, I had pretty good grades (in the 3.65 range). During my senior year, depression, coupled with a horrible break up (no excuse, I know) pretty much kept me confined to my dorm room, and as a result, I have three E's in relevant classes on my transcript. (Juvenile Probation Internship is one of them. I actually finished the hours requirement for the internship, but I never turned in my final review paper for no good reason.) I fear sending my transcript out completely because I worry that I won't be able to spin my bad grades to the hiring managers.
4. I haven't done a thing with my teaching certificate in the two years since I finished it. I've just been working at a large retailer for no particular reason, and as a result, I have no recent applicable experience.
Ok. Now that that's out the way, help me out. How can I get over my fear of my transcript? Retaking the classes isn't necessarily an option, as one was an internship which I can't repeat, and the classes would have to be retaken at a college where credits cost $750/hour. What should I do about the fact that I've been generally worthless for the last two years, rather than substituting, volunteering, etc. How do I even begin to motivate myself to get out of my rut of a job and get myself a career?
posted by kimdog at 8:45 AM on November 13, 2007