i just feel gross
September 20, 2007 4:52 AM Subscribe
How do you learn to love your imperfections and flaws?
I suppose, my question revolves more around physical imperfections rather than otherwise. How do you learn to acknowledge and accept the things that make you feel bad about yourself? Things that make you feel... ugly and gross. Things that you cannot, at all, change.
This should be a very exciting time in my life, in a new place with new people, and some great, amazing changes and opportunities. I'm not depressed. Rather, I am SO excited to live and try new things, but feel brought down by vanity.
Basically, I'm female. And have extra androgen in my blood. Which on the upside increases my libido, but on the downside, makes me break out BADLY (I have tried everything. Nothing has ever had an impact). The androgen basically fucks with my hair follicles. I'm also pretty damn hairy for a female. I try to keep things under control, but get so frustrated with my skin/hair that it keeps me home, ashamed, feeling gross, instead of wanting to go out and enjoy myself. I am moderately ok with the hair on my arms, but dealing with the sprouts of black hairs on my face is cumbersome, frustrating, and makes me feel awful. I don't have PCOS, I don't have insulin problems, I just have naturally high levels of androgens. I hate it and feel gross, and feel bad - and jealous of girls who have glowing skin, and hair in only the right places. I didn't ask for this.
I've considered electrolysis, but it's expensive. And new hairs sprout up every now and then, so it's an ongoing battle.
I don't know how to love my flaws, to be content with how I am. How do people do this and gain the confidence to love themselves, imperfections and all??
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