waiting to hear, aarrgghh
February 12, 2007 1:46 PM Subscribe
Post-interview, waiting to hear about a job, and I'm going nuts...
posted by frosty_hut to Work & Money (15 answers total) 4 users marked this as a favorite
I'm a radio jock who recently got taken off the air during a station overhaul in which most on-air people were replaced. I heard about another opening at a station that almost never has any openings. I applied and the guy wanted to meet with me right away, said he'd been looking for a woman applicant and also was pleased that I'd recently been associated with the format I was in, because he thought it would make moving to a classical format smoother (yeah, it's a classical radio station, I'm a lame dork, but I've always loved this music).
The program director met me for coffee over the weekend and I thought it was going well. He seemed positive and didn't ask me any tricky questions designed to make me contradict myself. He said he really liked my demo tape, and wanted me to submit another one by today. Meanwhile, I should mention, I have a friend who works with this guy who said he was elated that I applied--my demo tape was that good, yada yada yada. He apparently told my friend, "If we end up hiring her, the lattes are on me!"
So it's been looking good. So I dropped off my second demo today, and got an email back from the PD. He said not to worry if I don't hear from him for a while because they're gearing up for a pledge drive, "and that takes up a lot of energy around here."
Now I'm feeling kind of deflated. What's "a while?" I don't have another option, and I'm feeling like he's taking my availability for granted. I know I need to just accept whatever happens, that it's out of my hands, but I'm a wreck right now. This is pretty much the job of a lifetime for me, and could lead to other markets--bigger cities, better pay, a management position ultimately, etc. And the self-esteem shot in the arm from a job like this--full time morning show slot at the only station like it in our city--would be amazing.
I'm currently at another station and have been very down on myself and life in general. They recently fired my boss and stripped me of my on-air gig, and now I'm stuck doing trained-seal data entry. I could do a lot more for them if they'd let me, but it's always, "Yeah, well, you know, we're in budget cutting mode." They refuse to make me full time, and I'm very depressed.
So now I'm thinking I screwed up my interview and the PD at the new station is just delaying letting me know I'm not in the running. The only major slip-up I think I made was in telling him I was reserved. It was the wrong word to use, and he noticed it and brought it up again. I tried to explain that I find it hard to toot my own horn, but would love to be associated with, and representing, a station that I loved and felt passionately about. (That's his big thing, he wants passion.) So I'm wondering if I muffed it.
Anyway, I'm rambling. I just need to figure out a way to stop thinking about this and stay functional and unstuck from the fetal position until I hear from the guy again. The not-knowing is stressing me out. How can I accept that it's out of my hands?