Why does exercise depress/anger me?
August 15, 2014 8:14 PM Subscribe
I know that regular exercise is a necessity and that I need more of it. I know that it's not meant to be easy. But I'm not sure it's meant to cause irrational, free-floating anger and despair. So what am I doing wrong?
posted by MShades to Health & Fitness (35 answers total) 9 users marked this as a favorite
For the past few years, I've been trying to incorporate exercise into my regular routine, despite the fact that I've never really been into physically active activities. I'm getting older, and I want to live long enough to see the Singularity come along so I can replace my meat puppet and live in a body of android perfection. But that's beside the point...
When I exercise, afterwards I experience feelings of either depression and/or anger, sometimes both. I was jogging for a while, and stopped when I realized I was fantasizing about running into traffic. I've had several experiences where I've nearly snapped at someone who doesn't deserve it because my post-exercise mind is boiling with irrational rage. This month, I got a two week trial at the local gym, and spent most of yesterday afternoon trying not to bite The Boyfriend's head off for no reason.
This isn't normal, right? Everywhere I look, people say that exercise is supposed to be a great treatment for depression, that they use it to purge themselves of anger and stress. I even see beginners talk about how much they never knew they could love running/the gym/exercise after only a short time, so it's clearly not something that you build up to. Why am I the opposite?
And to be very clear, it's not "Oh, I didn't meet my fitness goals for this week" anger or "That guy at the gym is such a jackass" anger - it is an unfocused, anchorless cloud of anger and despair that hovers at the back of my mind, looking for something to latch on to. No one I talk to seems to get this, which adds to the frustration.
I know exercise is beneficial. I know it's something I need to do. But if it's going to generate this flood of anti-endorphins every time I do it, then I'm not going to do it much longer.
Basic info: male, 40, teacher, overweight, living in Japan