When working for other people who are paying me, I am one hard working mothergoddess. When it comes to working for myself, though, I struggle mightily. Help me fix that?
posted by The Almighty Mommy Goddess to Work & Money (8 answers total) 12 users marked this as a favorite
I have 4 jobs, and a business that I would like to build to replace all four. I also live alone and have to do all the normal grownup stuff, cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc.
When somebody else is paying me to work for them, I am the hardest working mofo in the place. If I'm cleaning, the place is spotless. If I'm organizing, a chimpanzee could find what it was looking for. If I have to get X, Y, and Z done in less than an hour, you'd better believe they're DONE.
Outside of the jobs, though, not so much. I had a gotta-get-done list of a dozen or so things for today. So far, I've accomplished 1. I play on the internet, or read a book, or whatever else in the world than doing the things I've gotta get done. My employers' paperwork is ruthlessly and meticulously organized, filed, categorized, you name it. My own is a hot mess all over every available surface. In the pizza kitchen and the kitchen where I housekeep, the floor is clean enough to eat off of. My kitchen, I don't even want to walk barefoot, because I can't remember the last time I mopped it, much less scrubbed. (I think part of the not wanting to clean is because this place isn't fit for human habitation thanks to infestations of multiple species of insect, and to several leaks that have caused lots of mold, mildew, etc. However, I do still have to live and work here, and I occasionally have to have clients come here.....like tomorrow, in about 20 hours.)
I've read a bunch on the green about procrastination, adult ADD, how to make yourself work....but none of them seemed quite right. FWIW, I have no ADD-type diagnoses, but I have fought depression, anxiety, and self-confidence issues for 30 years. Not currently in therapy, and seriously don't have time, but I am on Prozac for the anxiety and depression, and I meditate, do yoga, practice mindfullness, etc daily. Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated!