Navigating (Occasionally Crippling) Self-Doubt and Uncertainty
June 24, 2014 8:53 AM Subscribe
How did you deal with self-doubt and uncertainty after committing to a path you are not so sure will pan out?
posted by tackypink to Work & Money (7 answers total) 14 users marked this as a favorite
Hi there. I have a relatively satisfying new job coordinating marketing campaigns for an agency 20 hrs/wk, and doing software testing work 10 hrs/wk. I know I could be making more but landing a full-time job has been tough. Thankfully, I make enough to save, purchase health insurance, pay rent and bills, have a little fun, and most importantly, make room for bigger priorities in my life such as working on a portfolio of plays that I dream of getting produced someday, and slowly launching an ambitious startup with a business partner.
I'm grateful to be involved in what I consider to be meaningful endeavors. Yet there is this persistent, anxiety-inducing feeling that I have absolutely no direction and the ambitions I'm working towards, as personally rewarding every measure of progress may be, are too pie in the sky and "all over the place" to be of any actual and lasting consequence. I fear that I'm squandering what may be the perfect time to invest myself in *real* stuff like graduate school studying something useful or even just working a a stable full-time job with actual benefits.
Some days I feel content with my progress and feel fully self-assured that I'm exactly where I want to be and all I need to do is maintain focus and work hard. Some days I experience crippling self-doubt regarding the path I chose, fall into negative thinking patterns, and lament the 3.5 years I "wasted" since graduating when I could've done other things i.e. gotten a master's degree in development economics, and so on.
How did you deal with the self-doubt and uncertainty after committing to a path you are not so sure will pan out? I'm seeking some guidance, ideas, insights, experiences that yielded valuable lessons, etc. Anything helps.
Thank you for reading.