On getting fired - after my accident
May 27, 2014 2:59 PM Subscribe
My performance review was terrible and they almost fired me. I was given six months to shape up. But I was on disability for 50% of the work period and I don't want to get fired while I'm still in rehab. What to do?
posted by anonymous to Work & Money (12 answers total) 2 users marked this as a favorite
Our review periods run Nov-Apr. In the middle of November my spouse had surgery and was in hospital for five days. At the end of November I was in an accident. I was in hospital for a week, took 2 months short term disability and did a gradual return to work afterwards, finally 100% full time on Apr 1. A week later my spouse had surgery again and was hospitalized for two more weeks. Not the finest six months of my life.
I work on a failing software project. Two of the leaders of the project were fired, one while I was in hospital and another just last week (when I wasn't fired). Team has trust issues, product is years late. I recommend terminating the project, which the CEO and others refuse to do because they think there is opportunity. I have technical expertise in the market (which I was hired for) and have reason to believe that they are wrong and they are wasting their money.
My performance review focused on being scattered, a lot of busy but little results, negativity, lack of vision, low quality results that were just enough/just in time, too many things on plate, etc. Part of me is like well no shit, work is not so great when nursing ill spouse, raising a school age kid and a 15 hr/week commitment to rehab all while struggling to do the activities of daily life (now I can walk and pick things up off the floor but I have problems sitting in a meeting for an hour without pain). My boss says I won't survive a third round, I need some quick wins to "rehab" my image. I suggested that he leaves rehab to the professionals and almost cried.
I don't know what to do. I need a new job but doing it while I'm in rehab sucks, I have my providers set up between home and work to make it most convenient to do the program and do my job. I can't cut my hours, my spouse is not working yet and rehab is expensive. I don't want to cut rehab, I want to get better.
I am isolated and getting more isolated from the people at work because I don't want to drag them through my aches and pains. I asked my boss to change my job to something I could do, failing that assign me to a proper team so that I am not stuck in my one-person department on the side of the main team struggling to assert a role that has never been performed successfully at our company. He listened intently but no dice so far. Then we did an activity where we ranked potential of employees (I am a manager). My boss discussed the difficultly of managing low performers that were over-promoted and wind up being asked to leave the company. I felt this was targeted at me, and I don't know how or if I am going to make it through this period when ostensibly I am supposed to have the opportunity to be successful.
What are my next steps here. I am withdrawing more from my colleagues, partly so I can just do my rehab and try to get some work done but also to avoid saying anything negative. This will compound my problem. I could look for a new job but don't really need a new project right now. My savings are dwindling while I pay for rehab. I really need some time off but also can't afford it and hesitate if I am going to get fired.
I have lawsuit pending for personal injury in accident, is my job just collateral damage? Should I be engaging my lawyer with the expectation I will be fired next time? Was my review discriminatory due to my health? I also have on file a letter from my doctor saying that I have an illness of a cognitive nature (read depression) from before the accident, the condition is exacerbated by stress and I was on modified work duty due to harassment in the workplace and my husband's surgery before my accident.
I am going to see a therapist because of all the body parts I rehabbed, my brain isn't one. I am getting new medications for my depression but all the medication alters my view of reality.
I don't know what else to do to untangle this. I have one friend that works there but I don't think he will really understand or has the time/inclination to listen. Also I can feel myself getting paranoid that he will undermine me if it turns out that it's in his best interest to do so (I was snippy to him one day after some terribly painful treatment).
Any suggestions for how to dig out are welcome.