Help me sort my routine out please
May 18, 2014 5:34 AM Subscribe
I'm struggling with my routine as I am new to work life, details inside.
posted by aivilo91 to Human Relations (5 answers total) 3 users marked this as a favorite
I wake up at 6 to get to work, and come home at 6 and am pretty much on my feet all day with little time to drink water or go to the toilet, and only have a half hour break where I have to eat with the children. I'm a teacher and am exhausted when I get home and all I want to do is lay down and eat and browse on the computer. I wouldn't say I'm depressed as I'm generally quite happy and socialise and enjoy my work, but I feel like I'm trying to control too much of my life as I have limited time and am struggling to cram things in such as exercise, and then having to deal with the guilt that follows when I don't stick to my plans.
I'm thinking of exercising in the morning for half an hour at half past 5, (the gym is closed at that time but I could go for a run) or after work and not sure what to do as when I'm tired and don't exercise I feel incredibly guilty. I thought the weekends would work but I'm always busy on weekends and it never happens.
Another thing is alcohol. I'm not much of a drinker but do like to go out as I'm 23 years old and my friends and I do have fun dancing. We go out once a week, sometimes twice. But I'm worried about gaining weight. I get anxious thinking about it, and it gets in the way of me having a good time. For example if I have 4 gin and tonics in a night I worry I will gain weight as that's what all the nutritionists and magazines say, and I don't understand how people can drink and not gain weight, which I have seen. Sometimes I order soda and leave it at that, but I wish I could let go and be free and not be frightened of having more than one alcoholic drink without gaining weight.
I'm recovering from a compulsive eating disorder and have read books by geneen Roth which has helped me. I have in the process of learning how to eat when I'm hungry, but I have not understood how people can eat and then drink on weekends and not gain weight, even though many people do it who are not overweight.
I have bought a keyboard that I'm going to start practicing every day hopefully, after work to take my mind off food and relax me after work. Hopefully it isn't one more thing on the list that I won't be able to accomplish and increase my feelings of guilt.
So my questions are, how should I incorporate exercise in my daily life (I prefer swimming but it's closed in the morning and in the evening it's full of children and I'm much more tired).
How do I feel less guilty about drinking alcohol as I'm dreading gaining weight which interferes with me letting loose and having more fun, which I need after a long week.
I eat healthy but I am basically just tired, busy, and struggling with my new life routine.
I feel like I'm trying to control too much and don't know how to let go and not feel like I'm going to gain weight if I don't exercise 3 times a week and have a few drinks on the weekend. Writing this makes me feel like I'm such an annoying person for overthinking things.