April 21, 2014 1:28 PM Subscribe
Five years into my field aaaannd I don't think it's for me... help?
posted by xicana63 to Work & Money (5 answers total) 6 users marked this as a favorite
A bit of a long story but background details always helps in narrowing down advice.
During university I interned at X Company in the automotive industry for 3 summers, then upon graduation I was hired on. Worked their for three years full time, but coming up on the fourth year I was pretty much muscled out of there for a number of reasons. 1. Someone had to be thrown under the bus and of course it's always the person at the bottom of the totem pole. 2. The company is super antiquated and many colleagues and mentors jumped ship and had warned me to do so too... so I did. During my time there I worked in international marketing, really a point person for all international teams to us as a resource and help roll out tools to team. Really had a high level point of view and had a variety of tasks to do day in and day out. So I was a jack of all trades and a master of none.
Immediately as I started looking for a new job and was hired on at Company Y doing a snippet of what I used to do at my last company, event planning. Company Y is a totally different industry, the structure of their company hierarchy is totally different, their corporate culture is completely different. At first I was having a really hard time accepting all of this but as I continue to work here I've come to realize that its not just the company that is hard for me to deal with, it's the job. I'm in over my head. It's too demanding and too stressful and no one has patience with me. My boss and I do the same work and she does 4 times the amount of events I do. She really doesn't have patience with me. I've always been an overachiever but this whole company is made of over-overachievers that just want to make others feel inferior. I feel really lost and on top of that now I feel like I am under qualified for everything. I was hating myself, really beating myself up because I feel like I am underperforming though I am trying really hard and now I'm starting to really hate this job and I don't want to think like that. It's ruining my mental health.
I've started to look for a new job in a new company and I am scared I am under qualified for everything now and that ultimately I will have the same experience I have now, everywhere.
So hive, can you give me some tips? Have you been in a position like this? What did you do? Should I change fields? Career path? I just need some help. I've tried to look for mentors here at Company Y and professional organizations I participate outside of work but I can't find anyone. I do still plan on going back to school next year but with a wedding coming up I need to save money and such before I go back full-time.
So last bit, some facts:
-Yes I love marketing, but I feel like I have LOTS to learn. The end goal was to do strategic marketing but I am really doubting I can do it now.
-My strengths lie in presentation-giving, public speaking, teaching, coming up with ideas, problem solving. I have considered going more into account management but I have no idea where to start with that.
-Plan was to go back for my MBA.