I'm addicted to pornography and need help.
April 16, 2014 9:54 AM Subscribe
I've amassed quite a collection, and have become compulsive about collecting and organizing my images and videos. I've been denying it for a while, but as it's been getting worse as of late I think I need some help and advice; I'd particularly like to hear from guys who have dealt with this issue, as I'm pretty sure this affects the dudes more than the ladies. NSFW, I guess. Details inside.
posted by anonymous to Computers & Internet (15 answers total) 5 users marked this as a favorite
Apologies in advance for the crude language.
I'm ashamed to admit it, but collecting explicit images/videos has practically become one of my primary hobbies. It would be fine if I just got myself off and was done with it in five minutes, but once I sit down it's almost like I'm searching for the "perfect picture" that I can... you know... to. I'm at my weakest when I'm horny, which is practically all the time.
I'm always looking for new material, even though I have gigabytes upon gigabytes of the stuff. It's sort of like a high. I might get off once and say 'okay, I'm done' and then compulsively start collecting again later. It's also an anxiety reliever, I guess. It takes my mind off of the more stressful things in life. I can spend hours on it at a time, and lately it's been the first thing on my mind when I get home from work.
I've tried deleting my collection, but after a week or so I just start all over again. I've thought about deleting it all again, but I've spent so much time and if I just repeat my mistake and begin collecting again then what is the point?
One idea I've thought of is to make my computer a "no-whack zone," for lack of a better word. I'd limit my sessions to, say, the shower, where I would be done quickly and not spend too much time. I've also considered limiting myself to the collection that I already have and not downloading any more. I'm not sure how that would work.
Would anyone that has had problems with this before happen to have some suggestions or advice? How did you stop? As it's only gotten really bad in the last half year or so, hopefully I can break the habit and get back to pursuing more rewarding hobbies.
PS: Oh yeah. Just in case you're wondering, I have a girlfriend but she doesn't live with me. We have sex regularly, and she doesn't know about this. I'd rather find a way to curb this habit without letting her know that I'm addicted to porn, since the relationship is fairly new. If she were to find out the extent of the problem I'm worried it might be "deal-breaker" material.
PPS: Please refrain from answering this question if it grosses/creeps you out.