I have abandonment issues. I need reading material.
October 6, 2013 9:41 AM Subscribe
My story is unique, but my experience is not. I have abandonment issues. I need reading material.
posted by squirbel to human relations (17 answers total) 17 users marked this as a favorite
I was a young child being raised by a mother whose schizophrenia started to take over. I was then given up for adoption at age 6. I was adopted into a family that did not show love - father was a graduate student in medical school, mother was a business woman who blamed me for getting adopted and ruining the marriage. My mother left Michigan for Texas following a job opportunity and a man. My father paid a family to take care of me, and I'd visit him on the weekends. My mother heard about this, and came and got me and my little brother out of that situation before people talked too bad about her. I lived with mother the majority of my childhood.
I am overly sensitive, I have feelings of loss at simple goodbyes, and I attach to anyone who likes me and who I like. I am overly rational so I am not swallowed up in these feelings, I just observe them in myself. I've learned to hide my insecurities and shortcomings in the emotional realm. I am a recluse and I'd really like to get out among people and make new relationships.
I've looked for psychologists in my area, but the closest ones my insurance covers are two hours away. As a bicycle is my primary transportation, that is unfeasible.
I've looked into reading material, but my first foray went sour. I downloaded the book "The Journey from Abandonment to Healing" but that book is awful. That book is entirely about people who have left relationships and the remaining person's journey to healing. Completely not applicable.
Can someone suggest good reading material or people sources? I really think I can get better talking it out.