Watch your step.
August 23, 2013 8:00 PM Subscribe
In the spring I made a decision to move back home to find myself and really figure out what it is I want to do with the rest of my life. I'd like to tread water carefully with my next adventure. What makes sense for me?
posted by signondiego to human relations (8 answers total) 3 users marked this as a favorite
Wherever you go, there you are. That sums up why I moved back in with the parents. Relocating cross-country probably wasn't the best way to address psychological and existential crises, I realize that now. It's been a whirlwind past six years for me. I cannot believe the person I was even just two years ago. In making the hard decision to settle back home, I decided to tackle all these issues head-on. Since getting back in early May, I have done therapy, lost weight, changed a legal mistake I made when I was 18 which was the main cause of my issues, and in general just done much thinking.
I'm much better now, and I truly believe that. Like I've lifted a massive brick off my shoulders. I'm ready to live now. None of these things are a problem for me now. Of course it's naive to say it all disappears at the drop of a hat like that, but I have moved past this stuff enough to where I'm not constantly worrying about it like I was before. So obviously, I want to make my next move very carefully here.
The place I moved back from was Los Angeles, and my main reason for being out there was to pursue a screenwriting career. I haven't had anything accepted but have gotten some positive feedback from people in the industry and they encourage me to send more work. I have entered my work in screenwriting contests and had some success. I have taken classes on writing and screenwriting and everyone says my work shows real promise. I got paid to do journalism for two legit media outlets in the past. So I know I have what it takes.
But I'm not sure I'm ready to move back and do the LA thing again. Not that I don't have the perseverance or motivation/desire to pursue and make it happen no matter the cost, I'm just not sure that living in a city I don't really care for is a sacrifice I'm willing to make again. Living a normal life in LA while waiting around for a script that may never get sold is not something I don't think I'm really down for.
So my first option would be to move back out there or somewhere else entirely. Minneapolis was my second choice behind LA for relocation and I think I could be happy there. What isn't an option is staying here in Florida, I'm the type of person who has to live somewhere that I think I can have a good quality of life and this isn't it. This place would only drive me into the ground again.
A career in screenwriting is what I ultimately want, but I think I have a lot to gain by doing some traveling outside of my own culture. Something that would help me grow up even more, meet more people, and give me more life experience.
I have been thinking about that for a few years now, such as volunteering abroad. Or WWOOFing. I've even located some volunteer programs/organizations that hold interest to me. As it stands now, I have 14.5 grand saved up. So I'm at the point where my life can go in any direction right now. Ideally I'm looking at getting back on my feet in the first half of 2014, so I would have even more money saved up. The working holiday visa in Australia/New Zealand also sounds like something that is totally for me. I have a general plan if I were to do something like this, but the one thing that is crystal clear to me is that I don't want to end up back home again, which is why I'm taking my time deciding the next path I choose.
I am not really torn between the two options as much as I am trying to decide what really makes sense for me and where I am at in my life. Should I just go and see where life takes me? Am I making sense right now? Is making a move to Minneapolis/LA filled with more logic? I am absolutely willing to put a writing career on the backburner, but at the same time pursue it the best I can.