How can I tame my eating disorder?
January 22, 2013 6:07 AM Subscribe
I have had an eating disorder for years, but only sought professional help recently. I'm on a waiting list for therapy, but I don't know how much longer it will take to get an appointment. Looking for books/hacks/advice...anything to try and get myself back under control.
posted by anonymous to Health & Fitness (28 answers total) 10 users marked this as a favorite
I'm 38, female, and otherwise very physically healthy and fit: gym for weights and cardio 4x a week, very rarely get sick, not over/underweight. I know a lot about nutrition and eat very healthily (except my binge food). I take no medication except 150mg of Pristiq daily. I don't have private health insurance (nor am I American/in the U.S.).
I have been bingeing and throwing up since my teens, with a few weeks/months of respite here and there. I currently live alone, but even when I didn't, I managed to hide this very well. About 3 months ago, I got up the courage to tell my doctor (general practitioner), and cried the whole time, I was so embarrassed. He referred me to a program run by a psych who has an excellent reputation in this area; unfortunately, it's government-funded and I went to the bottom of the waiting list because I have a healthy BMI and am therefore considered to be not in immediate danger.
At this point, I am bingeing and throwing up nearly every day. Does anyone have any mental tricks, or book recommendations, or self-administered CBT...anything to help me calm things down until I can get seen by a professional? I know I should just stop, but I can't. I've read the previously posted questions on this topic, and have taken some useful stuff from the answers, but none of them really address my question. It's not even about my weight anymore: I know, objectively, that I'm not technically overweight (I'm nearly 6 foot tall and a US size 6-8), but many days I feel it. Even when I'm feeling relatively good about myself, though...I can't stop the bingeing and purgeing. How can I slow it down until I get help?
I can't afford any other options, and I am desperate for absolutely any advice. Thank you.