Between the devil and the deep blue sea
November 17, 2012 9:56 AM Subscribe
Questioning life decisions about college and the future.
posted by chrono_rabbit to Education (6 answers total)
Currently in my 2nd year of college after leaving for 1.5 years due to my illness and then transferred to a local city college. I think I underestimated how commuting would negatively affect me, I spend around 2-3 hours of commuting daily. After classes, I usually go to sleep right away or zone out. I tend to do most or all my homework/studying on weekends due to some of my night/noon classes.
Overall, I'm feelingly incredibly burned out in a short time after returning to classes. My motivation is at a all-time low, and I feel like I'm barely managing to deal with classwork/exams. I'm looking into the possibility that my depression has relapsed, but I can't seem to be less tired even when I get 7-8 hours of sleep.
I did seriously consider leaving college, but I have no idea what else I could do since I don't have any marketable/experience for other jobs. Also, I did think of public service jobs, but it's not suitable for my personality, and I decided to return to college. Right now, I'm planning to to continue my studies for 4-5 years for a regular BBA in Accounting. But after my first semester here, I don't know if I can maintain a GPA to become accepted for my major.
There is pressure on me to continue college from my mother, but at the same time I know this is for my own good due to my lack of other skills and general future employment. I can't transfer to a another college or switch majors, because I'm so far behind on credits after my absence.
I'm feeling uncertain about my future, and I feel like I've only made a series of terrible life decisions. I'm looking for any general advice for my situation especially when I lack any kind of direction or ambition. Thanks in advance.
Yes, I'm in therapy. Yes, I am on antidepressants. Yes, I did make plans to visit the Academic Advising next week.