Skeptical of my own abilities.
November 12, 2012 7:32 PM Subscribe
The time is drawing near when I have to make a name for myself, put myself out there, promote myself as a capable, dependable, charming, motivated, talented, creative, expressive, innovative, hirable grownup. But I'm having a bit more difficulty with this than I'd anticipated. I can't remember the last time I felt proud of anything I've done.
posted by The Biggest Dreamer to Grab Bag (3 answers total) 9 users marked this as a favorite
I'm a recent grad trying to get into a field that involves lots of analysis and some design. I should have a lot of feel proud of, like my peers have pride in their work or projects, but I don't feel this way.
Of course, I did accomplish some things in school. For example, I finished a research paper so that I could graduate. It passed. I finished a project last year with a team. The client accepted it and graciously thanked us. But I can only keep thinking about how I could have done things better. What I should have added to my analysis. How I should have started differently. And on and on. I don't know why, but trying to finish any project feels like such a struggle - no matter that I do, I always feel like there's something to be disappointed about.
You'd think I'd be able to better deal with the fact that projects are never "perfect" - I've done enough projects, seen enough critiques in studios, that it seems to me that this kind of work can ALWAYS be improved. I managed to get through schools with average or slightly-above-average grades, but in my few experiences with professionals (in internships and the like) I feel like I can't just coast anymore. I guess my problem is... how can I gain a sense of accomplishment in the things I do, when it feels like I'll never have anything done well and thoroughly enough to be able to wrap a ribbon on it and put it on my resume/portfolio and convince others I'm worth hiring or collaborating with? Are my feelings normal? How do people get past this kind of feeling?