How to Stop Being Underemployed
November 12, 2012 9:13 AM Subscribe
I somewhat successfully moved out of this situation
...But I'm too drained to make any major moves forward, even though the urgency is much greater. Please advise.
posted by Ashen to human relations (36 answers total) 8 users marked this as a favorite
I got out of my parents' house after a final argument, and am now living with a friend with her mother and grandmother. Words cannot describe how grateful I am that they took me in without hesitation, and have been anticipating my stay through Christmas.
I really, really don't want that to be the case.
I desperately want to stand up on my own two feet, and bootstrap myself into a full-time job and a new apartment. But my $8.25/hr retail job has been sucking the life out of me at a rapid pace. I spend nearly all of my energy trying to be the Kickass Results-Bringing Employee, so that I can use my bosses as a reference for a better job. This was an easy task for the first couple of weeks. Now, I feel a sense of dread every time I have to go to work: I'm no longer so confident that retail is just a temporary place for me, one stepping stone while I recover from and compensate for all of my past mistakes.
Today, it took me three hours to write a cover letter, and I wanted to cry throughout all of it. The stream of rejection letters since May - complete with intermittent periods of not receiving any contact from prospective employers at all - has been demoralizing. Unlike a lot of my friends, I wasn't good enough to get snapped up by an organization for a full-time job. It's been 6 months since graduation, and I have yet to get my shit together. And now that I'm using up someone else's resources, I have the acute awareness that I am REALLY RUNNING OUT OF TIME.
Please help me cope and get over myself, and perhaps give me some advice on getting prospective employers to finally take an interest in me. Tough love desperately needed. I am way too broke for therapy.