Continuing forward from a disappointing, chaotic college experience
October 26, 2012 10:08 AM Subscribe
These were four miserable years, and they were supposed to be the best? I guess the best years still lie ahead of me?
posted by Seeking Direction to Education (51 answers total) 11 users marked this as a favorite
Let's face it, back in high school, they kept promising college would be the best four years of our lives. The awkward cliques and draconian environment of high school would be replaced with freedom and goofy but lovable intellectual professors! You would become the best person you could be and have lots of fun at it! You would get that coveted piece of paper and become a unique candidate for the greatest jobs ever!
Fast forward to my senior year of college. Oh, I should be so excited, shouldn't I? Oh, shouldn't I be enjoying the end of this paradise before I go out into the harsh real world, shouldn't I?
Not exactly. These four years have been (nearly) the worst.
I was a decent student in high school, good enough to attract the attention of many "high-ranked" schools. I picked the best out of those, lusting after the research opportunities, famous graduates, creative philosophical approach to learning, and a support system that would help me "find what I love" (and perhaps I would find WHO I loved?).
And what did I get?
Other health problems.
"Advising system" that wouldn't give me the time of day.
Difficult major with limited job opportunities.
A few losses along the way.
You might say, "Well, why didn't you take advantage of everything?" Well, I TRIED AND TRIED AND TRIED. All these stupid health problems got in the way. Yes, I am seeing therapists and doctors.
All those cliques that were supposed to disintegrate after high school? They're still here, even worse than ever - and some are disproportionately large.
It seems like people are here for the wrong reasons - how could this have been the BEST place I got into, and yet these clowns are all here?
I could never find a girlfriend, and people are too focused on intoxicatedly "hooking up", which I don't care for.
I guess I made a few friends here and there, but still found it hard.
GPA is pretty much trashed due to the health problems.
And yet I still have faith. :)
So, my question is, how can I make the most of my life from HERE ON? How do I "look on the bright side of life"? I'll probably be doing some volunteer teaching over the next few years. My goal has been (and sort of still is) medical/dental/law school. I honestly don't care if it takes me ten or even fifteen years - as long as I get there.
In conclusion, how can I ensure that the best years lie AHEAD of me?