No lumps, some aches, plenty of fear.
September 21, 2012 8:38 AM Subscribe
Routine mammogram yesterday, not entirely unexpected secondary mammogram and ultrasound next week. Please help me calm down about it.
posted by anonymous to health & fitness (16 answers total)
Got the call this morning that they want another look at one side...the side I am worried about. That’s all they told me -- the caller was a nurse who I’m pretty sure doesn’t see films or anything. I’m 42, female, no breast cancer family history, and I’ve felt no lumps.
However: For the last couple of months I’ve been having what I can really only describe as upper quadrant aches and pains. Spots on my back, my upper arm, armpit, occasionally in my left breast. The breast ones do tend to get worse around periods, but all of it is generally there, on and off, all the time. And sometimes heartburn, when I don’t usually have it. Otherwise, all is the same as usual. I figured it was either my mattress, which needs to get replaced, or it was stress. I am coming off of two horrible years which included plenty of death of loved ones, unemployment, discovery of a chronic medical condition, and emergency surgery for a totally unrelated one. The symptoms started up around the time that my life began to improve, and I wondered if it was a weird form of PTSD. And I spent a LOT of time this summer quietly worst-case-scenarioing.
I got back on health insurance finally, I scheduled this overdue routine mammogram, and now here I am. My plan had been to get the ‘all clear’ letter from the mammogram, and then immediately pick up the phone to find a psychiatrist to deal with the unfounded anxiety. (I’ve been treated for depression in the past) Except now, well...
I guess my questions are: How afraid should I actually be? (I have read through some of the other breast cancer scare posts, and it's helped a little.) How do I get through the next few days? Bonus round: I have a spouse, but not a lot of local friends. And a preteen kid who saw all of the awful time, and doesn't need to see more.
Thanks so much for any advice you can offer.