Facing your Fears: Drugs, Booze and Social Anxiety
September 12, 2012 5:58 AM Subscribe
Need some advice regarding facing your fears, starting a new life, self confidence, social anxiety and self-loathing
(I will be getting therapy soon)
posted by frenchfryfrenzy to health & fitness (8 answers total) 4 users marked this as a favorite
I'm a 24yo male and I've had very bad self confidence and self image issues since childhood. (emotionally abusive Mother) At 18 I developed social anxiety due to a number of years of smoking weed and using other miscellaneous drugs, and working at a job that made me feel very self conscious.
So I quit doing drugs (lost touch with most of my friends due to this) and quit my job. I pottered round the house for a month or two just reading books and doing nothing. I didn't want to be this unconfident, anxious, self loathing person any more. I wanted to be someone new, who I liked.
So I decided to ignore and try to escape my problems by traveling around America for 6 months. It was fun and I met some great people but it highlighted how arkward and unconfident I had become around others, becuse of how I felt about myself and how I thought others perceived me(very negatively).
upon coming back home to England to find no friends, a negitive family I can't stand, and no money, I descended very quickly into self hatred and self destruction and I started to drink (innocuously at first). The booze very quickly became an emotional crutch and for 4 years (I was 20 then) I drank heavily as a coping mechanism (self medicating). I'm not psychically addicted and I've been sober for two weeks and Im not going back to it.
I WANT BACK INTO LIFE!
my question- I'm ready to face my fears but I'm not sure how to do it. I feel completely unloveable and useless, And if I'm honest I'm really scared about what lie's ahead. I continuously read books and web sites about getting over SA and other things like building confidence and becoming the person you want to be, ect. I just want to be happy and able to live the life I want to live. Has anyone been here before or had any experience in the things stated above,
how did you gain true confidence or become happy with yourself, how did you become comfortably and confident around people again.
Thank you for reading my question.
(And yes I will be getting therapy soon)