on getting my confidence back after making a number of (considered major) mistakes in my work. Since then I've been having odd emotional reactions and I'd appreciate any thoughts as to how to manage and minimise them.
So I asked for help managing my meltdown
after making a number of mistakes in my work. I got some useful answers and implemented a lot of the advice, specifically counselling, the books recommended, took two weeks off and exercise.
The two weeks off were quite good. I didn't even think about work, spent it with family and generally did other things. At the end of it, I felt fit and able to come back to work. However, I now am (and need to be) back at work and I'm experiencing quite odd emotions with dealing with my work -- I'd appreciate any advice anyone has on dealing with and minimising these emotions.
Specifically, I feel like I'm going through a break-up. I have waves of intense stress and absolutely hate my work and the environment and everything about it. I feel like I have failed and will continue to fail and I fantasise about changing my career entirely and doing something completely unrelated. However, I know rationally this is silly because I've put a lot of time and effort in getting where I am. Forcing myself to work is hard but seems to lead to mediocre results. When the waves pass I feel drained, foggy and tired. Other times, I feel normal-ish and can continue to plug along, albeit at a reduced pace.
Generally, I feel like I'm having difficulty concentrating and thinking. However it does get better and worse with times (wave-like). I'm thus doubting the veracity of my own abilities and the decisions I'm making.
I would love to just take more time off but unfortunately cannot. I somehow need to get on with the work.
I'm sure someone somewhere must have experienced this, I'm looking for any useful tips on getting over this "breakup" with my work or some ideas on what is wrong and how I can go about fixing it. Thanks.