Dealing with feeling lousy, and possibly capital-D depressed, when swamped with school demands and most of all, terribly uncomfortable with seeing doctors. How?
I could go on and on and on about how I've felt pretty much 'meh' for a few years now, and how school is this warped, alien place I rather forgot how to handle, and how I can't even do math (my favourite subject) because it's hard to think. Et cetera, ad infinitum.
As for taking action, I've written to the Samaritans, and called too - but put down the phone when someone answered, and ignored the reply that came. I've started emails to the school counsellors. I've planned so many trips to the GP that never worked out. I've hesitantly approached my parents, but redirected the conversation straightaway. All this because I am really, really afraid of seeing the doctor (who must be seen for a referral, as per insurance workings here). (And also, in part, because I don't seem to want to tell anyone at all.)
So, is the doctor-therapy-meds if needed route absolutely necessary? If so, how to get past the inertia and anxiety associated with the doctor's? And in the meantime, what can I do to up my studying productivity, if possible? I have the advice in this
question running through my head, but with the added constraint that school, and exams, are big projects that I seem to only be able to waggle my arms at.
P.S. I realise the answer will be along the lines of 'just do it'. I don't want to whinge, but I haven't yet found a way to overcome the mental bump. It might also be useful to add that I walk to school, run at least twice a week and eat okay, though I've gained a fair bit of weight in the past few years.