Move now or later?
June 9, 2012 6:36 AM Subscribe
Should I move now or wait another year?
posted by anonymous to human relations (6 answers total)
I'm nearing 30 and I just finished my undergrad degree this year because of a couple of bouts of really severe depression. I want to go to graduate school, but I need to build a portfolio first and that may take a couple of years. In the mean time I’d like to get an entry level position in film/theater casting, which is something I could potentially see doing as a career if my other ambitions don’t pan out.
I’m great at casting (many people have said this) despite being naturally shy. The problem is in order to get into it, you have to start with an unpaid internship, which if you’re lucky will turn into a casting assistant job. Those internships are hard to get and you never know how long you’ll have to wait for an actual job. Typically they look for interns who are organized and likeable. I have some admin experience but it’s all about 3 years old (from before I went back to school). I’m also somewhat awkward, so I worry that will make it harder for me to get my foot in the door. Once it's in, I'm confident I'd do a good job.
I’m living at home right now and I’ll need to move to NY to get an internship. I’m also broke, but my parents are willing to pay living expenses for a few months when I first move—that’s it.
My question: should I move now or hold off on moving for another year, and try to find a job here in order to save up money?
On the plus side if I wait a year I will save up money, gain some more recent job experience that might help me land an internship. Also, being at home may make it easier for me to work on my portfolio. I’m very prone to anxiety – working on my portfolio is stressful enough – and I worry the stress of living in a new city will make it hard for me to get other work done. I’m concerned if I move to NY either I won’t find an internship immediately, or, even if I do it will take forever to turn into a job and I will have no source of income and will have to move back home, which could be pretty soul crushing. Yikes.
On the downside, living at home over the last year has been really difficult. I think my depression has deepened because I’ve been more isolated from people my age (I have no friends here) and also just because I feel really down on myself for not being more independent. In other words, even if I’m working toward a future goal in the present, living at home still makes me feel stuck in the past. It probably doesn’t help that I rarely push myself to get out of the house to try to meet people -- I also suffer from social anxiety. I have been in and out of therapy but have never seen a therapist regularly for an extended period. I know I should. I am actually looking for one at the moment but unfortunately my health insurance won’t kick in for another 6 weeks. Also, given my lack of work history, any job I’ll be able to get right now will probably be pretty menial and unrelated to what I want to do. I worry that will take a hit to my self esteem.
What should I do?