I feel like a schmuck!
April 4, 2012 7:05 PM Subscribe
I feel like a schmuck and I hate it. Very special snowflake details inside.
posted by anonymous to Work & Money (25 answers total) 9 users marked this as a favorite
I've been in the workforce for nearly five years now. I spent four years working for one of the big accounting firms. I hated working there. I really wanted to be in finance. So I interviewed for other jobs for years without anyone finding out.
After four years, I got my big break. One of the large investment banks hired me in their New York office to work in private equity. Dream job, right?
The thing is, I'm just still so unsatisfied. I don't like how stuffy and conservative the atmosphere is. The work is boring. I don't like wearing a suit. And I feel like a schmuck.
I mean, I know this is a completely one-dimensional way of looking at things. My coworkers are incredibly bright. What I'm doing is high profile. I have a job other people would kill to have. (Hell, I'm lucky to have a job.) And I just feel meh about it now.
In some ways I kind of feel like I don't belong. In high school I was super nerdy. I hung out on IRC, reverse engineered software, etc. I didn't have any friends either and resolved to change that in college. I ended up getting sucked up into the whirlwind attraction of finance at the time, so I majored in economics and decided I wanted to work on Wall Street. In hindsight, I'd be happier at a tech startup or something. Or in media. Or in the restaurant business. Or would I?
I just feel totally lost. I know this is common for people in their twenties. Should I just learn to look on the bright side of things or what? How can I end up feeling like I'm somewhere I belong?