Oh my weight!
February 5, 2012 1:39 PM Subscribe
How do I accept my weight and my body? (Snowflake-y details inside)
posted by Trexsock to health & fitness (27 answers total) 15 users marked this as a favorite
Now, regardless of how obvious this question may seem, please do bear with me:
I have always been fat and have no idea what being thin is like. Well, I wasn't a particularly heavy newborn, but my first baby photographs already show me with a little extra pudginess that never really went away. It didn't really help my confidence that when I reached my teenager years, I'd already been to several nutritionists, was on medication and had been on and off dieting for years. That and the fact that I picked on/bullied by my mother/grandmother (who is obese)/school peer and told off because of my weight for years on end, left a big mark on my current self. I do understand that they are concerned that I'd/will end up like my grandmother, but it never helped things. (Even now, I can barely bear to talk to my grandmother because the first thing she'll ask will be 'how's your weight?')
I admit I enjoy food quite a lot (especially the home-made kind: roasts, stews...) but I have never eaten particularly 'wrong' nor do I overeat/binge. I also try to count my calories and have cut things like soda from my diet a long time ago, which, in the grand scheme of things, didn't really make a big difference. I did however, stop dieting a while ago as I don't see the point of it, since I never managed to either lose a significant amount of weight nor keep it off for a significant amount of time.
At this point, I am about 10-20kg (20-40lbs) overweight and despite that I haven't had anyone tell me I'm fat (besides my family) for years, I have extreme trouble getting over the fact that I am fat, and accepting myself/my body as it is. To the point that my partner has told me he gets a bit annoyed every time I question him about my weight as it reveals how insecure I am about it (he thinks I'm just fine as I am).