How do I get out of this hole? I dug it myself.
October 29, 2011 10:38 AM Subscribe
I've screwed things up and it is finally catching up with me. My job situation is not good and my future is looking bleak. I know that it's my own fault. I need to fix it but I have no idea where to start.
posted by anonymous to work & money (12 answers total) 13 users marked this as a favorite
I am awful at my job and am surprised that I have not been fired. I'm constantly not following the rules. My job requires attention to detail - I'm making many mistakes. I'm an admin assistant and have been for 10 years!! These are actual mistakes that I'd been instructed to not make. They wont cost any money but this is a very finicky environment and the details are extremely important. I was not good at my last job as well and can't think of anything that I'm actually good at. Something that I don't struggle with. My communication skills are shitty because I can't remember anything and the words in my head don't sound like the words that come out of my mouth. It seems like if you do something long enough you should eventually become more efficient at it.
There are other issues that I'm dealing with as well. I'm finally in therapy and going to meetings which I believe have helped with my general fog and lack of understanding as to whats been happening in my life. I've been prescribed (generic) ritalin and lamactil and quit coffee since it seemed to make me worse. Previously I've been prescibed antidepressants which didn't work and had side effects that made it difficult to function. I do feel so much better but cant hide from my performance earlier this year.
The fear and self doubt are taking over. I'm desperate and afraid. I'm already imagining what I would get on unemployment and how difficult that would be. How would my job search go especially since I only have admin experience? I'm taking baby steps to make changes and improve my life but it feels pretty late in the game as far as my job is concerned. I would fire me and probably would have done it a long time ago.
What can I do about any of this? How do I deal with this now?? What is the best way to deal with this with my employer and potential future employers? I've started to send out my resume even though I'm not hopeful since so many more qualified people are out of work. What should I be considering in terms of getting my life on track and not making these mistakes in the future? I have these moments of clarity and optimism and then this all comes crashing back.
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