Used enjoyment or enjoyed usement?
October 5, 2011 2:36 PM Subscribe
How do I resolve this dilemma where I will feel used if I do a project I'd otherwise enjoy?
I have a dilemma I’m at a loss to resolve, so I'm just going to give a quick timeline, then go into detail.
July 2010: Wife is hired by company. A narrow technical position I was the lead candidate for was filled by an internal transfer (priority over external hire).
August 2010: I interview with company for another position and am told by interviewer that company will hire me. Paperwork to issue the formal offer is submitted to HR by interviewer.
September 2010: Company cannot actually hire me or anyone else due to budgetary hiring freeze, even for in-progress hires. I am told that unofficially they still want to hire me as soon as they are allowed to again.
Now: Company has expendable resource that is going bad and will be thrown away if not used soon. My wife thinks of how I enjoy using this technology but haven’t had access to recently and offers me the chance to put together a design to help use up the resource. Several groups within the company are still unofficially interested in hiring me, but are not currently allowed to due to budget.
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I'm torn as to what to do here. The project would be really interesting to me, a great thing for my portfolio, and I would personally enjoy the process. If this was a personal project or my wife's old company that never had any position available to hire me, I would take this opportunity in a heartbeat, and have a blast doing it.
However, doing this work is something that would take most of my waking hours for the next week or so. It is also something that is very technical and requires a high degree of skill in a very narrow job field. I am not bragging when I say that I am incredible at this sort of thing.
If this was a one-time paid contract, a mid-quality contractor could easily expect to make a couple thousand (US) dollars for the week(s) of work. I personally would be very justified in charging substantially more since the quality of my work is known to be very high. Also, this particular job calls for an artist's touch, will be used to show off the group's industrial capability, and will potentially help generate a fair amount of work for the group.
Though I am currently unemployed, we are doing fine financially. I spent a good portion of the last few years doing unpaid work for a cause that I felt was important and was good experience, so I have no problem doing more of the same. What I do have a problem with is the feeling that the company is inadvertently using me. As my wife so aptly put it, it strikes me as a "Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free?" situation.
On the other hand, the movers and shakers will see the end result on facility tours and such, so it would increase my visibility to the people with the power to make exceptions to the hiring freeze and/or make hiring decisions later. Doing this project would also be a great addition to my portfolio for the future.
I have a great reputation with the staff of the group and am close friends with several of them. My background impressed the middle management hiring managers and HR. My wife also has a great reputation with both. This company is one that I would like to work for full time, and this type of work is exactly what I want to do as a career. The group still wants to hire me when it can, but it’s somewhat out of their control. This is a very odd, uncomfortable situation because it is so close to my dream job, but isn't, due to not being paid. Its sort of the uncanny valley of careers.
While I’m trying to reframe it as “The first [glass] is free”, I’m having trouble reconciling myself to this given the shenanigans with trying to get hired on, even though the project would result in something all-around pretty cool.
This is the hardest moral/ethical dilemma I’ve had in a long time. Should I do the project? What should I do to become okay with it and not feel used?
Anonymous email: firstglassfree at gmail
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posted by leahwrenn at 2:42 PM on October 5, 2011 [3 favorites]