Why am I never proud of myself?
August 24, 2011 9:06 AM Subscribe
I am a generally happy person, however I am never happy/proud about my grades or accomplishments. I frequently beat myself up over them. Why? What can I do to change?
posted by anonymous to Health & Fitness (8 answers total) 6 users marked this as a favorite
I've had some depression and anxiety issues in the past but they are mostly resolved, and I'm generally a content and happy person. I was never pressured to do well in school. My parents always encouraged me to do the best I could and praised me when I did well. I'm not compensating for a lack of approval (as far as I know).
I'm a computer science/math double major with a 3.86 GPA. I often feel I am not deserving of the grades I receive, and I'm normally very upset at myself if I get a grade less than 100/A. I know it is ridiculous to be upset over good grades, but for some reason I can't help it. The same goes for when I find a different way to solve a problem in a CS course and a professor praises me, or when I finally finish crocheting a gift and the receiver loves it. I smile and say thank you, but I always think there is something more I could have done, or that I don't deserve the praise.
This isn't a big deal and it doesn't drastically interfere with my life but I know it's not really a healthy attitude. I was wondering if the great hive mind could relate or shed some light on this thought process.