Why does this bring me pleasure?
July 29, 2011 10:29 AM Subscribe
Why does thinking about this certain (weird, gross) thing give me a heady, pleasurable feeling?
posted by anonymous to health & fitness (18 answers total) 11 users marked this as a favorite
This is the strangest question I've ever asked and I'm sure that a therapist would have a lot of insight but I'm curious to hear others' as well.
For background, I've had depression for about 20 years, I'm 37, and dealt with anxiety on and off. Lately more anxious, going through work changes and money problems. I've never had any signs of OCD or anything like that.
About two weeks ago, I was reading an AskMe and it mentioned tonsil stones. Being curious I looked them up and found a couple videos of them being removed. I don't have tonsils, so I've never had these apparently annoying little things. But something about watching the videos of people having them removed - digging into these weird little pockets and bringing out these white, yucky stones - it gives me a very satisfying feeling.
In the past couple weeks I've found myself reverting to thinking about those video and about tonsil stones whenever something stressful comes up. When I do that, I get a heady, sort of 'high' feeling - I don't know if it's endorphins but it does remind of of when I took Percocet once decades ago.
The only thing I can come up with is that the pleasure in seeing someone get that crap out of their body reminds me of the negative I need to get rid of, and how satisfying it is to do so.
Maybe I could get the same feeling from cleaning my closets?