I'm a depressed not-incredibly-recent college grad with less than a year's experience under my belt and I'm still clueless. More snowflake-y annoying first world problems inside.
Hi, metafilter. It's me
again. I wrote a question here about 10 months ago about what to do after a terrible college experience, and you all were tremendously helpful, so here goes again.
After about two months into my nonprofit internship, I landed a job as a at a small startup. Things were going great--I liked my job, the place was fun, relaxed, and casual, and I got to write. Certainly I wasn't making a ton of money, but it was fine for what it was. I even met a couple of great friends there.
Then things got bad. I (stupidly) got involved with a co-worker, and it turns out I fell a bit harder than I thought. It ended (of course) awkwardly, my depression came creeping back, and I quit my job without another one lined up.
To be honest, I had been searching for another job in The City for a few weeks before I up and quit without a plan, but I guess everything just became too much to handle. (I live in the suburbs with my parents, and I was dying for the urban life.)
Um. So here I am, back at square one, living with my parents. Broke. I have little discipline with money; I think that, growing up low-income, all of a sudden having a cash flow (with not many other bills to pay other than my student loans) made me go stupid crazy with material lust. This is a stupid and shallow concern, I know. I wasn't ever like this before. I guess I thought I was getting better, but impulse shopping and drinking should have been my warning signs.
The only thing I know right now is that I want to continue to write, and now I have a bit of marketing copywriting experience under my belt.
I did finally start seeing a CBT therapist, which has been helpful in terms of quieting my negative self-talk, at least a bit.
Um. I guess my question is, what should I do now? How can I get myself to Los Angeles doing something at least tangentially related to what I want to do?
I'm also not terribly fond of the marketing world, although there's a bit of an overlap with the things I really want to do. I want to be a journalist (for the web)/PR person for nonprofits, and a screenwriter, primarily, but my lack of clips is hurting me. I'm continuing to apply for entry-level marketing jobs because there are a ton of them in this city and I at least have the very basic skillset, but a part of me is afraid that I'll get stuck in that industry and never get to pursue my dreams. Moreover, it looks like most of these places are looking for interns that are willing to slave away for a few months before (possibly) being hired, and I'm not sure how worth it it would be to intern for a theoretical day job in an industry I'm not passionate about (but that makes a decent second option, I suppose).
I don't even know if that makes sense.
Erm. So I'm basically sending out millions of resumes every day to marketing companies. I also sent an email to an amazing digital news agency that I would kill to intern for (I talked to them late last year and got a great response but I had to work...) in the hopes that I could get experience (and maybe even a job with them) that way. The long commute would even be worth it.
So I guess what I'm asking is...should I try to find a full-time marketing job and do the passion projects on the side, or try to intern in a field I'm passionate about and find part-time work in the meantime? Will that look terrible on my resume considering I quit my full-time job after 10 months? Should I consider graduate school in journalism if I really want to make the switch with little experience?
I'm thinking of teaching myself some digital skills and starting a blog, learning how to pitch to web magazines, joining a writer's group, getting some more marketing copy under my belt, etc. I guess basically diversifying my portfolio. I'm still freelancing for my old job for a while, so there a bit of income still coming in. I'd like more freelance work from other agencies while I figure things out. Is there anything else I should be doing?
Oh, and if anyone happened to click on the above link, I still really, really want to travel and live abroad at some point, but I decided to wait because I have some lingering medical issues (besides depression) that I want nipped in the bud while I'm still here (and can still legally use my parents' insurance). Are there things I can do to satiate my hunger for long-term travel in the meantime? Any weeklong expedition type of things that I can save money for?
My parents are supportive during this exploratory period, which is great. I just feel like a bit of a bum with a case of the first-world-problem blues, is all. I must sound like a total scatterbrain overanalytical fool.
Anyway, if you've read this far...I could really use your help. Thanks.