I Once Was Lost But Now Am Found...?
June 18, 2011 6:55 PM Subscribe
Simple, calm question for folks who have had severe panic attacks. Nothing stressful within. Simply: is it possible to feel like you felt before they ever happened?
posted by carlh to Society & Culture (11 answers total) 7 users marked this as a favorite
Yes, I've read everything on Meta and the internet at large about anxiety. I have extensively researched this topic. I just need more.
If you're super sensitive about anxiety, this might be bad for you to read. I don't want to stress you out by reminding you about stuff. I'm okay, really...I'm just curious. Consider this your warning.
I had my first panic attack about 7 years ago, completely out of the blue. I eventually "got over it" (years later). It changed my life, ruined me. All that stuff. I won't go into details. You know how it feels...so do I. I almost felt better a year ago. Maybe two months ago I had another super serious panic attack, because of stress at work and my stupid efforts to try to deal with the stress. The last two months have been an exercise in, well, everything. Yes, I'm dealing. Meditation, medication, all of the standard solutions. I'm working on it. I don't need advice about that part. I am reading some very good books.
LONG STORY SHORT: Have YOU ever been able to feel like you felt before you ever had a panic attack? Does it ever get back to how you were years ago? Can you feel sane again?
It's a loaded question, because it's very much a "how do you turn back time" sort of thing. But can I ever feel like I did before I had my first panic attack? Nowadays, even if I'm calm, I still measure my life and everything in it as to how likely it is to set me off about another panic attack. It's Hell. It is Hell. I am trying to change my situation, but aside from that...assuming I can change my situation....if I do, when I do, will I feel better? Like really honestly and truly better?
If it matters at all, I am a serious Christian (Lutheran).
You are not my doctor or my therapist, but please do not bother suggesting I see a doctor or therapist. Been there, done that. I've been on a half dozen medications, I've faded out for years on them. Hate medications. I need to be clean and pure. Thank you, really, thank you.