art school confidential
April 21, 2011 10:00 PM Subscribe
Help me become the uninhibited artist and writer I once was.
posted by iLoveTheRain to Media & Arts (13 answers total) 47 users marked this as a favorite
Long story short: I'm a creative person who now fears putting my thoughts down on paper. I used to write, I used to draw, I used to have this wonderfully rich and fulfilling part of my life, and it's disappeared in the past year or so, largely because my the dean of my art school spent a year traumatizing me in front of large groups of people before I finally graduated. Now I struggle to let my mind be free and uncensored because all I hear when I go to do anything are these man's words about how I alone in the entire art school was untalented and unworthy.* I'm no stranger to art-school style criticism; the man was abusive, and I never thought he'd go so far as to deliberately sabotage my love of art, but he did, and now I am determined to take that back from him.
What can I do to break through this paralysis? I miss drawing. I miss imperfection. I don't like feeling like I'm going to have to grade myself if I do something wrong. I just want to be able to grow again artistically and I don't feel free to do that yet.
*Satisfying footnote: the very ideas I ended up putting forth for my senior thesis have now become integrated into my alma mater's curriculum, AND after being told a thousand times that my type of work would never sell, projects very similar to mine are now featured on the Disney Channel and Nickelodeon.