I don't know how to lose the weight again!
January 3, 2011 6:55 PM Subscribe
I lost a lot of weight (~90lbs) through hard work and subbornness, but for a handful of things that happened last year I have gained a little over 30lbs back. Help.
posted by gwenlister to health & fitness (11 answers total) 9 users marked this as a favorite
In 2008 after I dumped a mediocre boyfriend I took a hard look at my life and made some huge changes. In the next two years I went from totally inactive to going to the gym five days a week, I joined Weight Watchers online and learned to eat properly, and managed to lose just over 90lbs - went from 335lbs to 243lbs. Still majorly over weight, but looked and felt so much better. I was the most fit I had been, I was muscled and strong and had great endurance, and I was the most proud of myself that I can ever remember being. I had crafted fantastic habits and skills that were paying off in so many ways, and I amazing momentum.
Then all hell broke loose.
I had major foot surgery to repair a torn ligament so obviously couldn't continue with my normal gym routine, there was a flood in my apartment, had bad dealings with an ex, my car got spray painted, and for the first time in my life I suffered from a significant depressive episode. Went on Paxil, gained 15lbs, went off the Paxil, became depressed again, gained some more weight, and finally went back on antidepressants - Welbutrin this time.
So here I am, foot more or less healed (though I'll never be able to go through a metal detector silently ever again), relatively emotionally stable (but still medicated and will continue to be for the time being), but extremely upset over the regained weight. I know I am still way farther ahead than where I was when I started back in 2008, but somehow the regaining has left me feeling defeated before I even start. I have tried to get back on the wagon, so to speak, but have failed every time. All those carefully crafted habits are gone, I've fallen back into familiar unhealthy behaviours, and I haven't been able to regain that momentum or even enthusiasm for getting healthy and weight loss.
I need help getting back on task. I'm turning 29 in two months, and I would like to greet my 30's feeling healthy and strong, not defeated.