, an energy supplement to help with school work. Everyone in my family is making a big deal out of it. Idk what to think anymore.
Basically, I'm 17 and a Junior in highschool. I always have trouble staying focused when doing homework. I feel like I'm almost ADD but not enough to be asking a doctor for aderall. I have a lot of trouble staying focused on anything thats not due the following day. I can wish all I want to try and finish homework a day early because I had no homework that day, but I always fail to get the motivation. I always end up with the "fuck it" attitude, pack up my backpack and browse the web reading blogs and working on other hobbies. This really effects me when it comes to papers. I can never find the motivation in writing up a paper a week before. The only time I can get into the zone for writing papers is the night of when its 1am and I still have to write another 2 pages. I would consider myself a good writer, and I know I just typed a load of bullshit, but its 3am and I need to go to bed. I end up getting a C which really pisses me off because I know I could have done better. Then when it comes to studying for tests, it always seems like I end up having two on the same day and I haven't started studying for either. And studying a little bit everyday has never worked for me for single tests. I can't focus at all until its like 6pm or something then I usually blow of the second test and I bomb it. A lot of classes that I should have gotten As in are due to this reason. So I've been looking to find something that would help me get better at school things.
I came across Theazine after reading a post on Lifehacker about tea and what it does to you. They said that a mixture of the Theanine and Caffine delievers a very deep level of consentration. That sortof jumped off the page for me. I could use that. I've done the whole energy drink or drinking 2 cokes to get myself filled with caffine, but its a jittery energy and is not ever effective when it comes to saying focused on something before 1 in the morning the day its due. I looked around the web and the only thing that had caffine and Theanine in it was this
. The price was a little steep but its not like like broke (I work) so I bought it. It came in the mail today and I showed my mom thinking it wouldn't be a big deal. She gets really mad at me and starts reading everything on the bottle. Her biggest argument is that its says only 18 and up should take it. I'm 17. I told her its not like its poison until I turn 18. They just don't want to get sued when some dumbass 12 year old double doses and dies from it. I had to hide the bottle because she wants to take it and throw it out.
My sister is 21 and in college. I love her and everything, I told her what I bought but the mood she was making sounded like I was a heroine addict and she was trying to convince me to go sober and change my life. She was concerned how I turned to a drug to help my schooling and not try to study without distractions. I tried that. I will simply sit there and space out.
When I read all of this back to myself, it feels like I should be talking about how I'm taking some hard drug. BUT I'M NOT. ITS A FUCKING ENERGY PILL FOR GODS SAKE. I've read plenty of reviews on the stuff and everyone says it works fine. Its a respectable company. I can't find anyone that says the stuff in it is dangerous and I shouldn't take it. Theres no difference between this and drinking a shit load of tea and chasing it with a coke.
Idk, I really needed somewhere to vent after the events of today. What do you think? To me, its a fucking energy pill that I'm going to use responsibly and no one should be making a big deal about it. I can see my parents side, how would I feel if my kid just bought an energy supplement off the internet? But I think there over reacting. My sister is the one that can sit down and burn though studying for hours at a time like its nobodies business. But I can't do that without some sort of kicker.
Your thoughts. Please. :)