Considering suicide and possible psychiatric commitment
September 7, 2010 12:26 PM Subscribe
Considering a somewhat voluntary psychiatric commitment for myself. Meeting with a psychiatrist this afternoon. What should I tell him?
posted by 3491again to human relations (21 answers total) 1 user marked this as a favorite
I'm really, really upset about my life, have a huge decision to make regarding graduate school, I just lashed out at this boy that I'm starting to date, and am descending into a fog of suicidal ideation, panic attacks, and emotional numbness.
I have had suicidal thoughts most of my life (awful, abusive, mentally ill, addicted parents, etc., very long story). I was imagining methods for suicide from the time I was nine years old. My whole life, I've been putting it off and telling myself that I can always commit suicide later, that I should try other avenues to improve my situation and see what happens.
But I think that maybe this is something, as odd as it sounds, that I need to "get out of my system". Not an attempt, exactly, but just for someone to finally take my concerns about myself and my life with some seriousness. My cousin attempted to kill himself and got put in an institution, on good meds, and emerged a month later a lot happier, saner, and on track in his life. Maybe it could happen with me.
I've been to therapy before, tried meds, a million things. Nothing seems to work for me. And I have to make this graduate school decision within the next two weeks. And I'm going crazy with it. If I were committed, I could definitely get a medical leave of absence, and then sort this out.
I'm seeing a psychiatrist this afternoon. I've seen him before and I feel like we have good rapport. He works independently, so not officially affiliated with a hospital. If I feel like I need to be committed, I think he would sign the papers or do whatever I need. He knows I have depression and severe anxiety.
What should I tell him? What should I ask for?
How expensive would a commitment be? Will it ruin my life (if I have one after this)?
Where should I go? A local hospital? A specialist of some kind?