WAKE ME UP!
August 12, 2010 9:54 PM Subscribe
Everyone has it harder than me. So I should be taking advantage of that, right?
posted by defmute to Human Relations (17 answers total) 2 users marked this as a favorite
i'm 24 and got about as ideal a situation as i could ask for. my parents don't pressure me to make money or get a job (i've been alloted a year to make two albums i want to tour), i've got a lot of good and good for me friends around me.
i had a nervous breakdown about 6 months ago and have been attributing my lack of motivation for life to it. before that, i was extremely enthusiastic about everything and was very grateful and just plain happy. i did have the best girlfriend i could ask for at the time, if that makes a difference.
today, my best friend called me and told me that his girlfriend left him for another man without any warning. my friend had attempted suicide three times but still sounded like he was pretty much with it. it was tough for me to console him cause i'd been spending the last 6 months mostly in self loathing depression and was struggling to stay optimistic for him. i believe that this was god's wake up call for me to "fucking go for it" and stop second guessing myself.
when i get these surges of inspiration, i am often fueled by angry energy to "get my life back". i am often afraid, however of doing things fueled by anger because it put me in jail before and is often rooted in pride more than anything.
so, what do you think is the best way for someone who has no problems other than depression to "get over it" and start living without being driven by anger, pride and competativeness? Or better yet, what is the best way to jumpstart a life built on love?
p.s. i have been seeing a therapist since my breakdown and have been taking meds as well
p.p.s. no matter what, i am not going to give up my music projects so i've ruled out joining the military and salvation army. i will be going to Landmark College (a sort of academic boot camp) but that won't be until the winter.