I have primary
vaginismus, and have had therapy for it. I've made good progress over the years, which has been beneficial in lots of other ways.
However, I haven't had a proper Pap smear yet. My GP is wonderfully patient and encouraging, and has been giving me "manual" exams (i.e. no speculum, just hands) as part of a desensitisation process. Until recently she's been very happy with my progress.
But at my last examination several months ago, something went wrong and I found it much more traumatic than usual. I'm terrified of having to go back and continue with these examinations (irrational, yes, I know). This has had a knock-on effect to my sex life, where I've regressed to a state I thought I'd beaten years ago. It's very disheartening. It's also increased my general levels of anxiety.
I'm very concerned that I'm in my thirties and have never had a proper Pap smear. At the rate I'm going, I may never get one, and cancer does run in my family. Unsurprisingly, this adds to my anxiety and is undoing all my hard work at getting over this. I'm sick and tired of dealing with it, and worried that I'm compromising my health on something that should be easy to rule out. I resent using all of my "working on the problem" energy on a routine doctor's visit instead of on my sex life.
I could go back to CBT therapy, but honestly, I've had a lot of that and there's not much left that I don't know about my condition and what I need to do to fix it. It's about practice, practice, practice now.
I'm considering trying hypnotherapy to get me through the Pap smear. My theory is that I'd use it to manage the anxiety, to become just relaxed enough that I can get through the exam with the bare minimum of freaking out. I'm not trying to wake up saying "Yay! It's Pap smear day! I can't wait, it'll be awesome!" (I'm reliably informed that no-one enjoys it
that much). I don't really expect or want help with the sex side of things, as I'm making good progress on that when I'm not caught up in doctor-stuff.
There's also the hope that some small success will give me enough of a confidence boost that I can get better at it and move on. That's happened for me with previous stages of this problem. It's just been a long time since I've had a win.
Can hypnotherapy help with this? I'm told that it's good for habit-driven and anxiety issues, which are definitely a contributing factor for me. I'm not expecting miracles, just assistance with a difficult goal so I can move on to the (sigh) next difficult goal. I figure since the problem isn't physical, then a mind-game might do the trick.
Data or anecdotes about hypnotherapy (or getting over Pap smear anxiety) would be most welcome; detailed horror stories about doctor's offices tend to make me worse, so I'll pass on those.
I'm personally all for character development and meeting one's fears head on and all that, but it sounds like you are working on your issues and this particular thing is just a big fat not worth it. You need a pap smear for your physical health, not your mental health.
My personal trial is dental work. I've been through dental hell, and after a good year of recreational root canals, I decided -- fuck this. There are better ways for me to spend my energy than thinking somebody's going to give me a medal for sucking it up during a trip to the dentist, and frankly sucking it up for a year really did me no good at all. I still hated it, I still felt shitty and terrified before going (this isn't because of the root canals themselves, it's because I was afraid of what else they would find was wrong while they were in there.) and I just decided I wouldn't do it that way any more.
posted by A Terrible Llama at 8:06 AM on July 29 [8 favorites]