First of all, thank you for our supportive comments and stories. I know I'm not alone, both online and off :)
I do know the dangers of alcohol withdrawal, and I have spoken to my doctor on the phone. Unfortunately, I'm without health insurance right now, so I can't have an actual physical (can't afford it at the moment), but I will as soon as I can - I somehow found a way to keep liquor in my house all the time, so I'll find a way to save up for a doc visit and the blood tests he said he wants to do. So far, it's still just a headache, and a small coffee from the deli has taken care of it for the past three days (Sat, Sun, and now today). If anything changes on that front, I'm not going to wait it out. I know debt is better than death/fucking myself up worse.
Yes, it was full-sugar Pepsi/Coke that I drank with (whatever was on sale that week), so I'm sure I'm dealing with sugar withdrawal too.
And greekphilosophy, your comment struck me because I was thinking about it, and I started drinking heavily right after I quit smoking. This was back when we could still smoke in bars, and right after I quit cigs, I noticed that my bar tabs were higher than they had been in the past. At this point, I was just going out with friends on Friday/Saturday night. I did realize that I was replacing nicotine with another drink, but I rationalized it at the time by thinking "well, at least I'm not smoking and I don't go out that much anyway, so no big deal." Yeah, we can see where that train of thought got me. But I'm conscious of it this time around, so that's good. Hopefully I won't be posting here in a few years with "So, I gained 100 lbs from eating too many cookies/sandwiches/pizzas after I stopped drinking! What should I do?" So yeah, maybe I do have an addictive personality, even though I don't know exactly what that means. Gotta figure that out.
Anyway, I don't know if anyone is still checking in here, but thanks again.
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posted by zerokey at 10:40 AM on March 22