How do I manage my depression without insurance?
March 11, 2009 1:53 PM Subscribe
I need some help managing anger, depression, and sadness. More specifically, I need to figure out some way for my boyfriend to control his urges to beat the crap out of random people and for me to control my deep depression.
The back story is that we are both recent law school graduates. My boyfriend has been totally unable to find a job since ending a temporary job in November. I was laid off in December and my severance ran out in February. We are both saddled with a huge amount of debt and I've been supporting him for several months now.
We spend our days sending out resume after resume, writing cover letters, and looking for jobs. We are now contemplating moving out of the New York area and into my boyfriend's parents' house in Virginia.
All of this is a fairly normal story, I'm sure, and one that lots of people are going through at the moment. The problem is that my boyfriend is angry -- really angry. Angry enough that he tells me he's afraid to leave the house because he doesn't want to get into a fight and really hurt someone. He is also now beginning to have serious stomach problems as a result of worry.
I am barely functioning. I know that it will probably be a really long time before I get a job (as a newbie lawyer with no experience) and moving into the parents' house feels like terrible defeat. I cry a lot and feel listless and upset. I try to exercise but can barely muster the energy. I avoid friends because interaction with other people is becoming difficult and also because I am ashamed of my situation. I realize this is irrational. I talk to friends and family sometimes, but feel that I am burdening them with my problems when so many of them have their own troubles.
We have no health insurance so counseling is not an option. We are in the NYC area, but I haven't found many resources for people in our situation. I'm not looking for job resources, but for a way to save our mental health while we get through this tough time. I am afraid that if things continue the way they are, my boyfriend will end up in jail for beating someone up.
Any suggestions or strategies are more than welcome. Thanks, and please excuse the very long post.